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"You're exaggerating too much. What can happen to me if I sleep here?" I murmured.
"No one has been able to sleep from six in the afternoon until noon today. Furthermore, you can't hear the ringing of your cell phone or the knocking on the door, unless you're a deaf pig." he said indignantly, and then, as if still unable to quell his anger, tugged at my ear.
I was in so much pain from his pulling that I immediately cried out loud. Only then did he reveal a hint of a smile. He then released his hand and said, "It's better to just pretend to be monitoring. It's decided so happily." I have to keep an eye on my child and not let anything happen to him. "
"If you're so worried and scared, you have the guts." I shouted.
"Xu Shubei, if I had this ability, do you think I would waste any more time talking to you?" He gave me a fierce look with his peach blossom eyes.
"There are a lot of women who have this ability, so you don't need to keep staring at me. As a grand CEO, it's only a matter of time before you want to have a baby. If you just send out a message, there will be thousands of women lining up to give birth to you. " I stretched lazily and joked.
He sat down on the edge of my bed and turned to look at me, his eyes amused and sly. "You're the best choice," he said. "Beautiful women are usually brainless, while intelligent women are usually not. Beautiful women with good conditions like yours are simply the first choice."
I didn't know whether he was praising me or insulting me, but he obviously meant that I was cheap and fertile, so I rolled my eyes at him and said, "You don't have to mock me or tease me. When this child is born, I really don't know how to face him. In order to avoid trouble, after the child is born, you can carry both boys and girls away. I don't want to have feelings for the child.
"What do you mean?" He looked at me, and his eyes went cold.
"My meaning is very clear. Since this child is the product of a transaction, we will scatter after this matter is completed. "Take care of this good child, I will continue with my own matters. Haven't I expressed myself clearly enough?" I said, looking at him.
Even though he said that, his heart still felt an inexplicable pain. My hands couldn't help but touch my stomach. In order to avoid having any romantic relationships with children, I would always maintain this kind of messy relationship with Sheng Yun. I thought I might as well wait for the birth of the child to end it and focus on my own matters from now on.
But can I do it? I couldn't help but ask myself, can I be so ruthless and not care about anything else from now on?
Sheng Yun looked at me furiously. "Xu Shubei, is this what you meant?"
I saw that his body was trembling slightly, that his heart was deeper than the sea, and I didn't know what he was thinking. But to say that's what I really mean, I still feel it's against my will. Against my will, I nodded.
His eyes grew even angrier, and the moment I nodded, the deep sadness and disappointment in his eyes swept over me like a black hole. I fell into that deep sadness, and I felt a sharp, tearing pain in my heart.
"Have you never thought of another possibility?" After a long time, he looked at me and asked slowly.
"What possibility?" I looked at him in a daze, and I suddenly had a hope that I had never had before.
What kind of possibility? We were supposed to get married and then the family would be happy together? — No, I never thought of that. In my concept, that kind of ordinary and simple happiness, is too far away from me Xu Shubei.
I felt his heart sink even deeper, and the bottomless sadness in his eyes almost suffocated me.
After a long time, his gaze gradually returned to its usual calm. He said softly, "It's nothing, I promise you, whether it's a boy or girl, I will give TA the best in the world and my most beloved. As long as I'm here, I won't let anyone hurt TA even a little."
When I heard his almost taciturn reply, my heart ached, as if it had been crushed. My heart was broken and I could not breathe.
However, his heart was filled with thousands upon thousands of men and horses. Even when the words were about to reach his mouth, it was still a faint, completely tacit acknowledgement of the word "good".
I sat on the bed. Although the temperature in the room was just right, I felt an inexplicable cold. I pulled back the covers and covered myself with them.
"Only the two of us know about this decision. I hope you won't tell anyone else about it." His head gradually calmed down. The more he felt pain in his heart, the more clear-headed he became.
"Yes, you are still the child's mother, my fiancee. I will not marry unless the child can accept being his mother. " Sheng Yun said lightly.
Hearing this, his heart hurt even more. He wasn't even born yet, but he had already thought about it for so long? Accepting someone else to be a mother? It's best if you don't f * * king look for it. It's best if you find a lifetime of infertility!
My heart ached with anger, but I maintained my composure with a faint smile. "This is your problem," I said. "Don't treat this child too harshly."
"Don't worry, my heart hurts. Why would I be so harsh?" Sheng Yun followed what I said and said, "No matter what difficulties there are, as long as you speak up, I will help you. I know that giving you cash is an insult to you, and to your children as well. Thus, in terms of friendship, I will do my best. I accept your kindness. "
The glimmer of light in his eyes broke my heart, and I dared not look him in the eye again. I was afraid that I would be unable to restrain myself from saying the words that had been in my heart for so long, so I looked away and said lightly, "When I need your help, I will not be polite. I also hope that at that time, you can really do as you say. "
"Yes, I will." He couldn't help but hold my hand and exclaim, "My hand is so cold."
I quietly pulled away, I said, "I'll still say that to avoid future entanglement, just keep your distance."
"Have you decided?" He looked at me and asked, "Actually, if you want to..."
I had already guessed what he was going to say, so I put my hand over his mouth and I said, "Come on, we met for the sake of profit, rolled the sheets for the sake of profit, had this child for the sake of profit, even decided to give birth to this child for the sake of profit. I know what you want to say, but I don't want to hear it, and I don't want to. It's just a false happiness based on a bunch of benefits. I, Xu Shubei, am not yet qualified to be happy. Even if I do have happiness one day, I hope it's based on love. Although I don't believe in love, but if I want to have a good start in the future and look forward to ordinary and steady happiness, I will definitely use love as a precondition. "
"I understand," he said, sighing. "I think so too."
"In the future, if you don't want to, just give me the child at any time, and I'll take responsibility for him to the end." I looked him straight in the eye and said confidently.
"Don't even think about this, I will definitely grow up with this child and watch over him as he grows up. I will give him the best love. You can come see your child in the future. As for raising him, leave it to me. " Then he put his hand on my belly and said, "I will make all the guilt I feel for him into love for him in the future. You can rest assured."
"If that's the case, then I'm relieved." When I finished, my heart ached again.
Perhaps, this is the final decision of two rational people who only care for their own interests. There is no right or wrong, there is no emotional shackles, I am responsible for bringing him up, even though we have reached an agreement, but the feeling of heartache is unforgettable for the rest of my life.
Sheng Yun gave me a light kiss on the forehead. I could feel that his originally agitated mood had calmed down. He said to me softly, "You should change your clothes. I'll be waiting for you outside." I'll have the door repaired, don't worry. "
"Give me back my key." I said to him.
"No, I'll return it to you the day I carry him away after you give birth." He smiled. His mood was still unusually low, and even his back looked unusually heavy.
I couldn't bear to ask for anything under such a mood. This time, however, I put on the bright red suit that he had chosen, put on some makeup, put on a pair of bare shoes with a slight heel, and went downstairs confidently.
He was sitting in the living room, smoking a cigarette. In the afternoon, when the sun outside the window had cast a pale circle of gold powder over him, he leaned lazily on the sofa, looking out with sad and melancholy eyes, and when he saw me coming down the stairs, he quickly put out his cigarette and stood with his hands in his pockets. When he saw me standing on the stairs like a bright red fire, his sad face finally revealed a happy and contented smile.
The way he smiled was really pretty. I stood on the stairs and stared at him in a daze.
"Let's go." Let's go. He sauntered to the head of the stairs and offered me his hand in a gentleman's gesture.
"Where to?" My thoughts were still lost in the inexplicable emotion of what we were going to do, and I forgot what we were going to do.
"Go to Xu Changsheng's house, I'll face it with you." He took my hand in his, kissed it gently on the back, and then, taking me by the hand, made his way to the door with easy, determined steps.