C45 He Broke out in a Cold Sweat
C45 He Broke out in a Cold Sweat
She shouldn't be here to look for me. If she were to remember to look for me, she wouldn't have left me without saying anything …
How is she now, happy in her life? Did he have a new boyfriend? 'Did she come by herself or did she … ' She had never liked going out alone. She was afraid that she would go out alone, so when she came out this time, there must be someone accompanying her. It must be a man …
I lay sprawled on the cold marble floor of the square...
At this moment, I, who was always cautious, neglected an important part.
When night fell, I finally got up and dragged my tired legs, my numb brain, and my cold and miserable heart out of the shopping plaza.
After returning to the dormitory, I took out a bottle of Erguotou and drank it all in one go.
He quickly became drunk after drinking alone.
I turned off the light and lay on the narrow single bed, staring into the cold darkness around me, thinking about Dong Xue, who I had suddenly seen and gone away. I felt a surge of emotion, a sense of great loneliness and loneliness, a sense of unspeakable desolation and pain. The feeling of being abandoned returned to his heart.
I suddenly especially miss Floating Dream, especially want.
He got up, turned on the lights, turned on the computer, logged into QQ. His Floating Dream was not online.
"Floating Dream... "I miss you. I miss you very much. I especially miss you …" I don't care if she's there or not. I type a line of words quickly, a little drunk and numb in my head.
"At this moment, I am in great pain. I am very sad. I am very lonely. I really need you to accompany me …" But, you're not here … I feel like I'm going to die, I'm going to die. " I continued to vent my emotions madly.
When I was done, I stared at the screen and let the tears run down my cheeks.
After an unknown period of time, the Floating Dream suddenly came online.
"Keke, what happened to you?" I just came home and saw you. What's the matter with you? Is something wrong? " Floating Dream said.
She came. When he needed her the most, she appeared!
For some reason, my tears suddenly began to flow. My fingers were trembling, but I was unable to type.
"Keke – Keke – speak – speak – you are not speaking, I am very anxious. I am very worried about you looking like this, speak …" Are you there? " Floating Dream sent an extremely anxious expression.
I lit a cigarette, took a couple of puffs, forced myself to calm down, and punched the keyboard. "I'm here."
"Oh, I'm relieved if you are here... You scared me to death. I just saw what you said. I was worried to death … Are you all right? What happened? "
"I'm fine, nothing happened, it's just …" I just miss you so much... "I really want to."
The Floating Dream was silent for a moment: "Thank you … Thank you for missing me... Actually, when did I ever … Every day and night, I will... Although I can't see your face nor hear your voice, it's clear that you're in my heart and in my mind. "
My heart shuddered, "Ruo Meng, I call you Ruo Meng, do you like it?"
"I like it, I like everything you call me."
"Ruo Meng."
"Yes, I'm here."
"Ruo Meng, I …"
"Keke, I'm listening."
"Ruo Meng, I … I like you. I like you a lot.
"Keke, thank you. I understand what you mean. I... I like you a lot too. "
My heart was in turmoil. Although neither of us had said 'I love you' to each other, it was enough to make my head spin.
"Ruo Meng, I can hear your heart beating."
"Keke, I heard your heartbeat too …" It's right in front of us, right by our ears. " Floating Dream said: "Even though I know that this is all fake, even though I know that in reality we will never become possible, even though I have never seen you, even though I have never heard your voice, I clearly feel that all of this is so real, so real, so real, and so heartfelt."
"Ruo Meng, you are the most beautiful woman in my heart … I'll always like it... "No matter where you are, no matter where you are, I will always remember you …"
"Keke, you are the best man I know. I will cherish you …" The Floating Dream spoke faintly and sent a deep feeling to him, "Keke, at this moment … I have a feeling I've never had before... In this virtual world, everyone is living in a sea of people. Being able to get to know you is the arrangement of fate, and is God's compensation and pity for my reality. "
In my heart, a myriad of tenderness, honey and unspeakable reluctance welled up. "Ruo Meng, I'm leaving now. Tomorrow, or even the day after tomorrow, I'll be leaving Hsinghai."
"Are you leaving?" "Where are you going?" Floating Dream sent an unexpected expression.
"I don't know. Perhaps, it will be very, very far away. But no matter where I go, I will never forget about you … "
"Keke..." Wherever you are... I... Everyone will remember you... At this moment, I suddenly feel very sad. "
"Ruo Meng, don't be sad. In fact, no matter where I am, we are still together. In this virtual world, we have already crossed thousands of mountains and rivers. There is no distance between us on the internet … In the future, we can continue to meet here, chat here, and communicate here. "
"I know... However, I still feel very sad, you want to travel alone, to drift through the four seas, I... "Take care. Live well." Floating Dream seemed to be crying.
I finished my cigarette, drank a large mouthful of water, adjusted my breathing, and said, "Ruo Meng, I drank quite a bit today and said a lot of things that I haven't said before. But, those are the words in my heart."
"I know, I understand. Keke, promise me one thing, from now on, no matter where, no matter what happens, no matter how bad your mood, don't drink alone, okay? When you're in a bad mood, leave a message for me. I'll chat with you to relieve your boredom. "
"I promise you!"
"Keke, can you smile for me?"
I sent him a smiley face.
"It's good that you're smiling." Floating Dream sent a smiling emoticon: "Keke, remember, you are a man, an indomitable man. A man cannot be defeated by anything, no matter what difficulties, tribulations, or setbacks you face, you must remain optimistic and confident.
"I firmly believe that you will not be defeated by any setbacks. No matter where you are in the future, no matter what you are going to do, you will definitely stand up again. I have that confidence, and you will have that confidence, won't you? "
I was silent for a moment before I sighed. "Hmm …"
She continued to say: "Calm down, calm down, life, step by step, little by little throw away, walk out of the road, throw away the baggage. In this way, the longer you walk, the calmer your heart becomes. "
"Mm …"
"Life is a mirror, you smile at it, it will smile at you, you cry at it, it will cry at you... "Therefore, we must be strong. Remember, there has never been a savior in this world."
Floating Dream's words deeply moved my heart, and I couldn't help but feel that I should start to thoroughly reflect on the past.
It seemed that his self-reflection would continue in the future on his wandering journey. Perhaps, at some point in time, I will completely get rid of the haze of the past, and find back the confident, tough, and full of fighting spirit of me.
Of course, if there really comes that day, this would be inseparable from the encouragement from the Floating Dream.
That night, I chatted with Floating Dream for a long time. Unknowingly, the sky had begun to brighten and I felt sleepy. I yawned and said, "It's already dawn. You still have to busy yourself with work during the day. Rest."
"Time flies so fast. It's already dawn. "I'm not sleepy, I'm not sleeping. Go out and run. Sleep for a while."
"Alright!"
"Keke, will you be online tonight?"
"This... I don't know, maybe. " I'm going to invite Yun and Zhang Xiaotian for a final dinner tonight.
"Alright, then I'll wait until you get to 11 tonight. If you don't come online, then I won't wait any longer."
"Alright! "Then let's go now."
"Wait …"
"Why?"
"Keke, I... I have one more thing to do. " Floating Dream stuttered.
"Speak!"
"I... Shall we do a video? I want to see you, and I want you to see me... "Okay?"
I nearly fainted. "Not good, my computer doesn't have a camera."
"Then... Shall we send each other pictures? "
"Not good, I don't have any photos on my computer!"
"Then... Why don't we talk, okay? " The Floating Dream refused to give up.
"Don't you remember the principles we stated when we first met? Have you forgotten to send a video or to talk to each other when there were no photos?"
"I... I didn't forget... But, you're leaving, I … "I …"
"That's good, then continue to adhere to our principles of communication. You must know, we can only be friends in the virtual world and never enter into reality. Since that's the case, wouldn't it be better to leave each other with a beautiful impression and fantasy?"
"Mm …"
"Also, no matter where, no matter how far away we are, the distance between us is just the thickness of a computer screen and the distance of a net … Do you understand? "
"I see." Floating Dream was like a child who had made a mistake.
"Alright, leave."
"Goodbye!"
After turning off the computer, I broke out in a cold sweat.